It's Time to Make a Choice...

and all I want to hear is your voice.

A lot of stuff has been going through my head lately. A LOT of stuff. I'm starting to become very anxious over it, and I'm worried that all of this nonsense is going to make me go legitimately crazy.

It wouldn't be the first time.

I'll just start simple. School is over in two days. I think I mentioned this in my previous blog, but I am going to emphasize it every chance I can get.

School is over in two days.

I wish I could explain to you now good that is. Not only do I get to sleep in and hang out with friends as much as humanly possible, but I am getting away from what mostly keeps me up at night. The stress, the anxiety, and most importantly, the drama, is going far away. Even if it is for a few months, it is a few solid months of pure joy.

I can tolerate that just fine.

Part of me wants to switch schools. I could have that option if I wanted it, and I always wondered if that would be an overall good decision or not. I was faced with this dilemma last summer as well, and I ended up sticking around (obviously). I still haven't fully decided if that was a mistake or not, however. Don't get me wrong, I became close friends with a lot of people this year, and I love them to death... but if you know anything about me, you know that my relationship with my mom isn't the best, and that alone is enough to have me go mentally unstable.

Again, it wouldn't be the first time.

I wish it wasn't so damn rainy outside. I am in that perfect melancholy mood to go out and capture some pictures. Surprisingly enough, I have made the revelation that my best work has come from times when I am at a self-struggle. As emotional and depressing as that sounds, it is the truth. I think it is my way of channeling something so negative into something beautiful. Something that everyone can enjoy. Something great.

I'd like to think that, anyway...

Music is really becoming even more important in my life. I really never thought that it could be remotely possible, but I've been proven wrong. My computer has a hard time playing music, and I have no other source to listen to it from other than my car radio. Needless to say, my absolute fear of driving is being outweighed by my need for music. Things work in mysterious ways, huh?

This is what is stuck in my head now:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LFR9vqxNPB0