it is a very somber day.

To the greatest pilot there was ever going to be... Happy Birthday.

I keep having this re-occurring dream. It's the last day of school, and I'm walking down the hall and talking to all of my friends, and I have the sense that I am looking for someone. After a while, I come to find Mike and a group of his friends hanging out by the vending machines, you know? When I see him, that feeling that I am looking for someone goes away, and I smile and wave. He does the same and we briefly talk. I start to walk away, but I turn around and say, "Hey, Mike! Wait! We're gonna hang out this summer, right?" His smile fades and he gives me a serious, almost questionable face, and he dissolves out of the dream. That is when I wake up.

I have not found something so heartbreaking. I have to remind myself every time after my dream WHY he fades out of my dream.

I love you. I miss you.

I never realized how much you changed my life. <3