it takes a LOT for me to feel this way...

and boy, you have whatever it is.

Hmm... This past weekend. Where should I begin?

...

SHOULD I begin?

Doubtful. Very doubtful.

Overall, I can say it will be one to remember. I love my friends more than anything, and they always find ways to make me feel loved. Whether it be just inviting me to an awesome party or singing a song about how awesome my tits are, I'm feeling pretty good.

Shit... who am I kidding?!

I am feeling fucking fantastic.

Besides... I have to be positive and optimistic... if only for JJ's sake...

:D

I love my life.

dear heart,

Please do not fail me now.

Beat. Beat. Beat.

You know how in Dirty Dancing, when Johnny is showing Baby how rhythm is like the beating of your heart?

I feel like I need to replay him going, "ga gong. ga gong." over and over just to remember my heart's still working.

You, your hairy ass, your lies, your cheating, your using, and your fucking adorable smile can KISS MY MEXICAN LOVING (most of the time) ASS.

There. That feels slightly better, I guess.

the calm before the storm.

There's bright in even the darkest times if you can find it...

Well, here's a short update. I've been sick for a while, and it isn't going away...

I still miss you, and every time I hear your name or see your face I gag. Literally.

School is making me crazy...

I love EMW for many reasons. She knows. :)

I cannot WAIT for senior pics.

That's all. <3

it's been a while.

since i could say that i wasn't addicted and
It's been a while
Since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while
Since I've gone and fucked things up just like i always do
It's been a while
But all that shit seems to disappear when i'm with you...

I need to get better with blogging again. It was something I was pretty scheduled on in the summer, but now it just seems like everything I would and could write about would be negative, and that's just annoying for anyone to read, let alone myself. Sure, I made this as personal documentation for myself later, but I do have at least 2 avid readers (love you guys!) that don't want to listen to me. They have enough of their own stuff going on.

So, on that note, I will just summarize things that have happened recently.

• I finally got rid of him... well, most of him anyway.
  
• I mean everything to someone, but it could never be mutual the way they want it.
• School sucks. Horribly.
• Wedding > Homecoming, but I still get random bouts of regret on that decision.
• 9 pictures left on my film camera! I plan on taking the rest at Erinn's tonight so I can get it developed. :)
• I have to walk home most days... I need a freaking car. >_<
• It's been almost a month... WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GO? You will NOT blame this time on me, damnit. This is NOT on me.

Alright, since this is going south, I'm gonna stop it right here. XDD

<3