"Something about the Midwest sun and oh, it makes me miss you more than a lot..."

"Could be the trees that stand alone in the fields

They remind me every couple of miles
I'd love to stop our lives, stop everything
Just so we could move far away
We'll live alone together with the sweat of the summer
With the chill of the cold winter air, oh yeah..."

So, essentially... "Janet" by The Format is my life. LOOK IT UP. It is WORTH IT.

Fall weather is finally here, and I am embracing it with open arms. I always tell people that my moods will change with the seasons, but it's never been so evident than the transition from summer to autumn this year. Everything has been going beautifully. Sure, there are some stumbles along the way, but that's life. You learn to shake them off and be better than it all. Do I miss what is lost and what once was? Sure. Do I ever want to go back? Not in a million years.

My birthday is in 26 days, and in 25 my life will feel a bit more complete again. I couldn't be any more content than those nights cuddling again. I miss that SO much.

My sleep pattern has faltered yet again. I don't know if it's the weather change or the amount on my mind as of late, but it's becoming very aggravating to me. I liked waking up at 7am every morning and going to bed at 11pm every night like a normal person.

My sister gave me the greatest compliment the other day:

"You are like a phoenix, my love. You get shut down and you just keep rising."

I have never been able to do that in my life, and this year I have learned to rise from the ashes and fly once more, stronger and more beautiful after each fall.

I've become SUCH a better person. :)