Tears run down my face
I can't replace
Now that I'm stronger, I've figured out
How this world turns cold, and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find
Deep inside me, I can be the one...
Hmm... It's been a long time since I've updated this, as my Jay so lovely pointed out. :P I also just mentioned to him that I usually don't blog unless I feel something to an extreme, whether it be happiness, sadness, anger, what have you.
Today, I DO feel something to an extreme. Today is the six month anniversary with Jay, and I feel too much love to describe, let alone even comprehend on my own. I feel like I have been with him FOREVER, yet it's been only half of a year. It's amazing how close you can become to someone in such a short period of time. He knows more about me than ANYONE, myself included. If I ever have a question within my life or within myself, he can answer with how I'm feeling and what I should/would do.
You all have known the old Stef. You know, the one who was always so down on herself. You'd never see me complimenting myself OR accepting others' compliments. I'd sit alone, I'd stay quiet, and I was that kid that everyone "liked", but really I got talked about behind my back. Now, I have all of the confidence and self-worth I need, and I have Jay to thank for that 100%. He was THAT guy to explain, prove, and go above and beyond to continue proving that not all guys are the same. He brought me back to life when everything inside me died after the fallout with my dad. He was there for me when EVERY OTHER PERSON turned their back or covered their eyes.
So, yes. Today, I feel love in the most powerful sense of the word. I could never picture myself with anyone else for the rest of my life, and I am elated. I cannot wait for many, MANY more months to come with him.
Happy anniversary, babe. I love you! :)
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to Heaven
<3
